so. life has been busy, which is not to say that it isn't busy now, just that i'm doing this instead of my homework. so i added another playlist to the playlist page, i'll probably do something with the music page soon, and i'm debating adding a new page related to. piratical schemes. so to speak. giving advice and such i guess, i have a pretty sizeable collection of files that i maintain and organize pretty well, so i feel like i could give good thoughts on the matter of piracy and whatever. i guess the issue it it's like. a crime or something. if you can believe it. so i'm not sure i want evidence of it on my personal website, even though literally everyone does it and it's fine. idk i am dwelling on this. i might delete this whole part of the blog if i decide no though, so this is like a limited editoon blog post. anyway i really have to come up with a halloween costume, if it's going to live up to my usual standards i should have started working on it like. a month ago. i just don't feel very inspired i guess, the perfect idea hasn't come to me yet. i've done some really good ones in the past though, like mothman and cousin itt and even a headless horseman with a proper removeable head and everything. my problem is that i'm not satisfied with anything less than a total transformation. just a mask or an outfit is a waste in my mind, ideally there should be no recognizeable pieces of me involved. full monster mode otherwise what is even the point of halloween. honestly i have no ideas though for this year so part of me is like "just get a jason mask" but i could never live that down i'm a man with standards.
SEE these are the concepts i go for. you have no idea what i look like from these costumes. it has to be a total transformation and i will settle for nothing less. i just need to think of a good idea soon or it will not have time to turn out good. okay anyway that's the blog post bye
-eli
happy september this whole month is kind of a waiting room for halloween for me. i also consider all of october to be halloween. in honor of it kind of being spooky season, have a kind of spooky guy.
see, not too scary, perfect september vibes right there. okay anyway, i really am going to do some more work on this site soon, i'm working on more playlists and finally expanding the music page to be an actual page. college is collegeing, i'm trying to get involved in the theater tech stuff going on cause there's a lot of it here, which is nice for what is not at all a theater school. everyone likes events i guess. idk if i've talked about it a lot here or if it's just easy to get from my established vibe of "guy who wears all black and is always stressed about the ten thousand things he's doing even though those things are all kind of silly," but i have indeed been doing stage crew stuff since middle school and don't plan to stop now. nowadays i mostly do sound tech, which i find very interesting and fun, so hopefully i get to do some of that. the big production this semester is the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee, which is a show i love and will literally explode if i don't get to be involved with at least a little, so like. things to look forward to i guess. if i have any time left over with work from classes once i'm doing tech stuff i think i'll try to find a dnd group to join, i'm typically the forever dm back home but managing a campaign on top pof everything seems way impossible so like. i'll probably just play another bard or maybe a cleric. i like playing support characters, my theory is that there's such a lack of them because everyone who likes playing support is busy dming. i mean what is being a dungeon master besides supporting the other characters so they succeed in cool ways. unless you're running like some tomb of horrors shit i guess but i'm always coming at it from a "you're the players' number one fan" sort of perspective so, not my angle at least. anyway this post is getting kind of long, or it least it looks that way from writing it in the html (is this how it's supposed to be done? is it going to get really annoying and load weird when i have a bunch of posts on here or does text not take that much effort to load. these are all things i should probably know but alas i am not a coding expert or even a coding knowledgeable person. i'm sure i should at least be putting line breaks in here just to make the writing more intelligible but i will not be doing that because i personally enjoy large blocks of text that flow like a cool stream and if that's not to your personal tastes then that's fine and you're entitled to your opinions and have a nice day enjoy this total lack of punctuation i'm sure you wont. oh yeah this was in a parethesis wasn't it. i get the feeling these posts are not a great reading experience). OKAY blog post over
-eli
so i'm like. in college now. that's a thing that happened in the past week. literally nothing has happened yet it's all orientation stuff which is boring and also kind of garbage as well. they keep asking me to talk to people like buddy i can't even talk to people on the computer what do you expect me to do in a circle of 30 random people. i hope when classes start it'll be easier because at least then i can talk about what we're doing in class instead of "so you go here too huh" which i am already so tired of. in other news i got a buffy comic, favorite show of all time but i've never touched the comics, so excited to read it and see if they are worth lookimg into. making this website has made me vaguely interested in taking computer science stuff but not more than the part of me that knows it will be hard and frightening so. probably not ever haha. it is crazy though like everything is scary to me lately it's like that one car seat headrest song. you know the one where he talks for most of the song instead of singing and it's just a weird ramble about his various problems. that one. anyway that's enough panicked nonsense for one blog post i think, i'll probably update the website soon unless i don't. for reasons.
-eli
saw coraline. so so very good (as is known about it), i'm not usually a 3d guy but the 3d worked so well there. anyway today i got to enjoy what's probably my last time at the beach for the summer, love the beach if the ocean has no fans i am no longer on this earth etc etc. the waves were crazy and everything because of a storm that passed, which like the storm sucked but i love crazy waves so, silver linings i guess. i don't know if i'd be able to live somewhere not on a coast, like if i can't see the ocean every so often i get sad. this is a small blog post.
-eli
by the next blog post taking three days i meant a week. this was an example of subverting expectations and not me forgetting to blog for a week. anyway nothing major has happened in my life i guess, i went minigolfing with my friends and i'm going to see the coraline remaster tomorrow (very exciting hooray). i made a site button, it's extremely bare bones and does not look cool like the other ones i've seen so maybe i'll work on making a better one. i'm still working on making more playlists to add to the tunes page, and i guess i should start working on some sort of list of artists i like to add to the music page. idk website progress has been slow, i've been focusing on packing a lot since i'm moving into a dorm in like a week, pretty wild right? i'm kinda not ready for summer to end, i got too used to wearing flip flops everywhere (which is clearly the most major change that this summer ending will bring. no more flip flops. obviously). anyway it's a weird time, i have to get better at keeping in touch with people digitally, cause i'm not going to see them in person a lot anymore. i'm a notoriously bad texter, i'm great in face-to-face conversations but talking online is hard for me, ironic for someone who's constantly online right? anyway i'm trying to work on it, so hopefully i get better at staying in touch with people. anyway yeah, that's about it for this blog post, here's a picture of my dog 
-eli
(the dog's name is brownie and she is a rapscallion who is either sleeping or causing trouble. i love her a whole lot)
this is really setting the precedent that i write these every two days, isn't it? well i'm definitely not promising that, if i had a schedule it woud feel too rigid. maybe the next post will take three days, who knows. anyway i am putting a lot of effort into this website right now, i think mostly because all of the real life areas of my life are major disasters in ways i will not be getting into, but suffice it to say none of them are really things i have control over, so it's nice to have control over this. i got a playlist page working finally, i could not for the life of me figure out how to get the song players with playlists that some people have on here to work, so i just joined my playlist together in one big mp3 and stored it on a different website, which was actually really simple and nice. now i can even make multiple playlists and stuff, pretty good solution in my book. in the news of music that i like, motion city soundtrack has a new single out and it's really good (and apparently the credits song to some movie called didi that i hadn't even heard of but now i definitely want to watch). also jimmie's chicken shack has an album out which hasn't happened since like. 2007 i think, which is wild. anyway they has already released most of it as singles but it's still pretty good, i don't think it has the energy of the earlier stuff but that's probably just them getting older and not a drop in quality. anyway those have been bright spots in my otherwise stressful current situations, next week i'm going to see the 3d coraline remaster with a friend (neil gaiman has been accused of some shit and i'm sure it's probably true, but also i already bought the tickets so. idk. i'm just trying to look at it as a laika movie, i love laika their craft is unparalleled, coraline is so good and paranorman is probably one of my favorite movies like. ever. stop motion is so cool, like all animation is a crazy amount of work but with stop motion you have something physical at the end of it, and laika uses such inventive techniques for making their characters and sets and it's all so good. okay laika tangent over). all this to say my life has been crazy but i'm getting through it, probably my next step on this website is to add more playlists cause that was fun, and i guess make a site button? that's one thing i'm iffy on cause i can do a lot but visual art isn't exactly my wheelhouse, idk i'll see what i can do. i'm looking for ideas for things to add i guess is what i'm saying. okay that's all folks end of blog post
-eli
(i've decided it isn't actually obvious that i'm making the blog posts even though it's my website. what about identity theft, past me. did you think of that? or is it "did i?" too confusing, post script cancelled)
what is up, potential readers of this blog page. today i failed my road test so no driver's liscence for me. oh well nobody got hurt or anything i just hit the curb. i'll just have to reschedule and try again, hopefully on a day where i got more sleep than last night (which was none. nerves i guess. who can say for sure) and it'll go better. to be honest though driving scares me and i hope to not have to do it very often once i get my liscence, the whole process gives me the wiggins. anyway i'm cheering myself up by watching the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee again, love that show, always cheers me up (until the i love you song anyway, why does it have to be so sad...). not sure what else to say in this one, not feeling spectacular about failing but it's not that big a deal at the end of the day, it's whatever. when i pass the test i'll put like. trumpet fanfare in the blog post for that day. i don't even know how to do that i'll figure it out. is this what blogging is supposed to be like i have a tumblr so i should know but i never blog on there i just reblog stuff. whatever i don't think anybody is reading this i could say anything here.
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cowabunga
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that doesn't count i say that in real life. i'll think of something more computery later
-eli
(obviously though right like it's my website who else would be writing these)
i'm writing this post and i don't really have much to write about, i guess. i made this website because my beloved tumblr blog of many years was marked explicit incorrectly and it took them three weeks to fix it (they literally just fixed it today thanks staff) [that was sarcastic i feel like they could have done it a little sooner probably]. anyway what i liked about tumblr was the ability to have my own website that i could design the layout of and add cool html elements to, which surprise being marked explicit takes away. i would spend so much time tweaking the theme of my blog to be cooler and cooler and then BAM it's gone for no reason. so anyway i decided i would learn to code for real and make a website here instead, since i had always thought that seemed cool but way too hard. turns out it is very hard, but i'm enjoying myself and it's been way more customizable than my tumblr ever was, which i guess is the tradeoff for having to build it myself (although "myself" is being generous, a lot of it was looking at cooler websites on here and staring at their code and writing what they wrote with different colors and stuff. is that what coding is idk i feel like i've been cheating a litte haha). now my tumblr is back online which i guess makes this website kinda pointless now, but i don't really want to get rid of it. i kinda want to keep updating it and making it cooler, it feels more mine than my tumblr even though it's still hosted on a different website, but idk i can put gifs wherever i want on here so that's something at least. 
see look at that isn't that great. idk, it's been fun and i want to stick with this place, we'll see how much i update. okay that's pretty much it for this first post, bye.
-eli
